Well i am going to try to use this as a vent if you will. even though I go see someone, the idea disgusts me of sharing everything with one person. It gives them too much control over me. So maybe if i just vent about each day here it will all work. Ill feel better. today I took my dogs to the beach for the first time. They were nervous but i think they had a good time. It was cold and windy, but i still had fun. I hid out till i had to go to work at 5. I worked till like 7:25ish. Had a good germanesque dinner. I realized i needed to clean my room because it had become more of a cave than a living area. I try talking to my friends about what i feel, but they don’t give me any advice i can use. Typing this i feel like some emo teenager, but i know i have been through more than any of them could imagine. Attempted rape, abusive relationship, major car accident, lost my job, lots and lots of dead people, my whole life changing without me having control…. I could go on and on. I just fed my cat so i should finish up my bed and go to sleep. My lark is coming home tomorrow and i got puppies to play with in the morning.
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the week of the cold
Well last sunday, with nothing to do at work, I was stumbling around sick as a dog, and luckily went home after one hour. Went home and found out I had a 102 temperature, vomiting, my throat was closed up and I couldn’t swallow and breathe well. So this went on till Tuesday when i had to go to Art 1.2 because I had no more absences left. So this is my miracle regimen that saved my ass all the way through to thursday.1 Piece of plain toast (to help with the throat)1 Vicodin (to help with my general hurting and it makes me very perky and likable) a 16 oz bawls energy drink (caffeine is awesome)with this I didn’t even look or act sick! I didn’t feel it except for my throat witch even now still feels swollen and sore. BUT I got a lot done this week. I applied at Sonoma State, I realized i need to get a new job because the one I am at stresses me out and I have just messed up there too many times no to see how much i hate my job at the moment, and last but certianlly not least I got a boyfriend!I have been hanging with him and hooking up for about three weeks now, and it has been very fun. His siblings are interesting, I think for the sole fact I haven’t been around 10 year olds in a LONG time. But it was very cute on wednesday, me, him and his little sister were roughhousing in his apartment, and she through a blanket over him and me. His head was in my lap and he just looked up at me and said, Hey wanna be my girlfriend? now this was interesting because from the beginning we both felt the same about our relationship. We both thought that ” Wow we both like each other, but we need to focus on school.” but hey I said yes and there we go. so i got a really awesome boyfriend while I was sick…… WIN!Now all I have to do is survive through finals and this final week of school……. 
